Outcomes

I was just moved to tears in the middle of Starbucks. I have been pushing down the fear lately, trying to hold on to the peace I have been feeling. But for some reason fear and anxiety like to try and plague me. But I refuse to let them overcome me, turning to God before that fear and anxiety takes over my heart.I have this bad habit of trying to control my life and my future. I have been worrying a lot lately about what is going to happen after I graduate and what I am going to do. I was catching up on some devotionals in my Jesus Calling book and I read today's, and the first line was "Leave Outcomes Up to Me." I need this constant reminder that I am not in control, God is. God is loving and wants what is the best for me and will lead me where I need to go. As I went back to later devotionals that I had missed, November 9's, moved me to tears, speaking to my worry and anxiety."Sit quietly with me, letting all your fears and worries bubble up to the surface of your consciousness. There, in the Light of My Presence, the bubbles pop and disappear. However, some fears surface over and over again, especially fear of the future. You tend to project yourself mentally into the next day, week, month, year, decade; and you visualize yourself coping badly in those times. What you are seeing is a false image, because it does not include Me. Those gloomy times that you imagine will not come to pass, since My presence will be with you at all times.When a future-oriented worry assails you, capture it and disarm it by suffusing the Light of My Presence into that mental image. Say to yourself, "Jesus will be with me then and there. With his help, I can cope!" Then, come home to the present moment where you can enjoy Peace in My Presence." (Jesus Calling: Enjoying Peace in His Presence by Sarah Young).One of the Bible passages that coincides with this devotional was Deuteronomy 31:6:"Be strong and bold; have no fear or dread of them, because it is the Lord your God who goes with you; he will not fail you or forsake you."God is with us forever and always, no matter how far we may roam. We can feel safe and in my case I can try to feel calm, about the outcomes of my life.The exact fears I was feeling and envisioning were described and I was reminded of whose love I am protected in, God's. No matter where I go or what I do God will be with me in it all.